I think I lost my mind but still...no regrets
I think your story is a beautiful thing, even flawed as it is, and you should not be ashamed of any way you choose to present or post it.
Dubs Wrote: The only madness I see here is only having 7 chapters of backlog.*cries in 0 backlog*
Continues to write over 100 chapters ahead*
But in seriousness. When I started I only had like 4 chapters ahead which was gone by the first week, but I similarly to OP couldn't wait any longer to get it out. It's a great learning experience though, and it means what you publish is always fresh in your mind, which is nice.
Ariadne_Yarn Wrote: But I wanted people to read my story. I wanted feedback. I wanted to get better at writing. My story is complex, confusing, unpolished and a mess like me. I don’t exactly know where it’s going and how to write better.
The important thing here is to learn! There's nothing wrong with putting work out for feedback and progress, as long as its the best you could do with the tools you had. As you go, I'm sure you'll gain readers who find your work really fun and interesting and will engage with you. It's a long game, and you have to have patience. But keep writing to improve and the readers will come!
If you're looking for feedback, get some review swaps going, which I think you've already done if I remember correctly. So you're on the right track there. And there are plenty of resources online for how to write better if that's something you're looking to improve on. I recommend youtube for technique advice, as well as the writing forums here. There's some great threads about how to do just about anything in writing, and if you still aren't sure how to approach something you can just ask! Hell, even a google search. There are so many blogs that have written extensively about how to polish and edit, how to write fight scenes, romance, basically anything you want to write, someone has shown how it can be done and done better.
So don't worry. Keep writing and reflecting and writing better next chapter. By the time your story is finished, I'm sure you'll be heads above where you started, have more readers than you expected, and will know what you need to do next. Happy writing!
I say, just go with your own flow. If simply expressing yourself to the world is your dream - then do it, unleash the beast.
I'm doing mine daily, which I've been told is also risky, but I think there are benefits too e.g. readers being able to continue reading for a bit and get into the story.
It certainly seems to be working for you anyway! Look at all those ratings already! Good luck!