Lord Joyde The Madman: Heylo, everybody? How are you all?
Jesus christ I had hoped to God and back and beyond that I wouldn't have to type this down...
Guess the pills must've gotten to me already...
Then again, you guys and girls deserve to know whats going on in my life.
And before anyone asks, I'm going to delete my so don't even think of asking to donate. (Though I would be flattered if people actually wanted to but still no. Money will not solve my problems; dedication, hard work and implausible willpower will.)
So... recently, as you may or may not have noticed, I've been pushing out seemingly random Author notes which describe the ons and offs of my real life.
... However, despite my hope for recovery, the situation has gone from bad to worse.
Yesterday, I had a checkup with my doctors and well, I have officially been prescribed 20 pills of Persene and 10 pills of Neofen... FORTE.
You may not know which medicine these are but uh, they are an ANTIDEPRESSANT and a PAINKILLER.
Their stronger versions, respectfully. I'm also due to a .. well, basically a mental-scan sometime next week which... may or may not reveal certain things about me.
Why am I telling you guys this? Well, its basically my way of saying how there is a good possibility of no more updates for the time being.
Then again, sheer depression and hopelessness is also a writing motivator so I might dish out a chapter or two but... for the next 3 months I have to lay off the computer. Also I have to change my lifestyle nearly entirely... (aka go out more, take long walks every day after taking my pills)
I'm not actually telling you guys this so I can fish for pity, good god no I'm still Joyde... potentially brain damaged and drug-reliant in order to remain a functional member of society but Joyde nonetheless.
This, alongside my previous spinal injury, which has yet to heal completely btw, has had detrimental effects on my willpower.
Not to mention how due to the fact that I haven't been able to go to many classes (didn't have the will to attend/was laying in a hospital bed) there is a good chance I might FAIL and have to REPEAT my college year.
Not the end of the world... but that means I'll have to pay 7-10k monies... that's a whole lot of money.
I even spent an equal sum earlier this week on a new computer, thus putting me in a bind. (I was expecting to gain some leeway as my grades aren't exactly utter trash, just no attendance).
Studying is going to be extremely difficult as I'm no longer allowed to drink coffee or intake any form of caffeinee for a period of two-three years...
My anxiety ensures that I never get enough sleep. (fell asleep yesterday at 20 and woke up at 7 with black under my eyes...)
In any case, I hope that you can forgive me... I'll try to dish out a chapter here and there but don't expect anything this month.
7th month if everything goes well I might be healthy enough to do stuff and if not.. well shit.
As for my college, I need to earn 24 points if I want to re-enter my college by paying a lesser sum which can be split into 4 payments ... and if not, then I'll have to pay the full 10k.
EDIT: Removed the points because people were getting worried and my PM box was getting spammed.
While I am on this... involuntary break, I would like to ask you guys some things about the progression of the story.
Before, you guys voted on more of the LitRPG aspect... yet suddenly some of you are saying that you wouldn't miss it as much as you thought.
I would personally not do much about that side of the story. It was just the introductory stuff, this story isn't really about.. well, about Euphoria, ironically enough.
Also, I want to see your thoughts on progression; which zone would you like to see first in the next ARC?
Russia (Viral Infestation/Eldritch Encounter) or Europe (The Balkan War/Reforging Eadom). Take your pick in the comments.
Note that I said "first" which means we will se BOTH of these, just depending on when.
Some of you have also posed questions about my second story, that is the Destiny; Infernal.
Honestly, I had it all planned out and basically written but a certain someone had to ruin it all with a review full of spoilers to my plot...
Its kinda sad but.. well, I'm stuck. I have the ending, the middle but no way to finish up the early stages.
Would you guys mind if the plot of the story is predictable? (Not really but... well when you read what I've written and then go "ah, thats what VIKKUTORIA meants by etc etc" feels like it would be a very weird and negative feeling to the story so I don't know...
Tell me what you guys think...
Anyways, I sincerely hope that you guys can handle the waiting time..
This of it as porn-video buffering. Wait nvm, that's just gonna make you even more pissed off.
Oh well... (I'll still be replying to comments/reviews on a regular basis so don't be discouraged from talking to me... it will probably help me too)