🎶Thought it’d be a perfect song,
But you’ve always been dancing alone.
Trying to forget the melody For it’s too sad and slow.
Little by little, The lights turn off, Music is fading.
It’s time to go home now, You know he’s not coming.🎶
While heading home I realized I didn't even ask his name, well, does it even matter? Maybe nothing's meant to be. At some point in our life, we will meet a number of people, some will be part of our lives, some will just pass by. In some way, a part of them will be significant enough to influence our habits, some will just stay in our memories while most are forgotten.
I don't have to think much about him as I have no intention to bring things further anyway. He's just a stranger who has the same type of music as me and it doesn't mean anything. Maybe it happened because I was thinking about my ideal type at that time, and as if someone heard me, he just magically appeared.
I barely convinced myself, and the next thing I knew, I'm already walking toward the store again as if I'm bewitched. He's not there, offcourse. While knowing that there is little to no chance to see him, I was still a bit disappointed. I dragged myself out of the store and decided to go to the coffee shop to clear up my mind a bit. This time is crucial for me and I shouldn't be thinking about this, I have a company to run soon, and here I am, having some silly thoughts.
I turned around to check if my favorite spot is empty and walked towards it to settle down, I checked my bag and realized I didn't bring my laptop with me so I won't be able to study here. I was about to decide to just go back home when I noticed that I brought that book I bought yesterday.
I put it out and started reading it while sipping my coffee. A few pages after I started and I'm already into it when suddenly, I heard a voice nearby saying,
"Off the pages"
I put down the book to take a look at that person.
I then stared at this guy in front of me and smiled at him, "It's you again," I said, amused at his sudden appearance. He had his hood down this time so I had a clearer view of his face. There's something about him that draws you without you knowing it. Is it his eyes? I don't think so, there is nothing special about it. The color is not rare, just typical brown, and yet, why does it exude warmth and security, as well as a hint of ambivalence in it that I can't describe? His gaze is too strange for me to unravel.
He sat in front of me and asked "You actually bought that? If I remember correctly, that's the book where I put the note right?" Oh, that is a bit embarrassing.
"Yeah, but don't get me wrong. The truth is I really wanted to buy this book even before. I've read the synopsis back then and got interested immediately. I wanted to read is so I can have a secondhand feeling on how it would be like if your favorite character suddenly pops out of the story and would even interact with you. Interesting, right?
Well, that's that, it just so happened that it's where you put that note". I explained fast not wanting him to think that it was him whom I'm interested. Well, maybe just a little bit, but I don't have to tell him that offcourse. Though, I might have sounded strange talking a little bit too fast than usual.
When I finished clarifying, my phone suddenly rang so I checked the name of the caller. Seeing his name in the screen, I felt the urgency as he rarely calls due to his tight schedule. I then excused myself to answer the call.
"Excuse me, I'll just answer this".
On the phone, I immediately heard him say, "Hey sis, miss you"
Yes, It's my brother, Aiden, the "superstar".
"What do you need?" I answered, rolling my eyes. Don't get me wrong, I do have a good relationship with him but this is just too sudden, so I asked him that, and his tone tells me he needed something so I instinctively acted cold at first.
"That's too cold hmp, I just said I miss you, and yet you're giving me that attitude," He said, whining about my response. Yes, he's older than me,
and also yes, he acts childish sometimes so I have to give in when he does that.
"Fine, I miss you too. Now stop acting and tell me what's going on?" I asked, feeling urgent. Even though we're close compared to most siblings there is, offcourse it is rare for him to call just because he misses me, unless something is bothering him or he's in some kind of situation. And now, this unusual phone call is bothering me as well.
Can you come here? I just needed company" he said softly.
He explained nothing and gave that vague statement so I guess that confirms my intuition that something is definitely wrong, but what can I possibly do? I'm too far from him at the moment and I'll be graduating soon. In addition, the distance between Melbourne and Seoul is no joke. I do visit him sometimes, but only during vacation which I rarely have. I'm currently not free as I still have to attend school, and our parents would probably get enraged if they knew I skipped my classes just for Aiden.
"Bro, do you know how far you are right now? I can't possibly just fly there because you want me to. Aren't you the one who decided to leave? Stop making a fuss and let's just talk about it over the phone, okay?" I said, trying to convince him as I don't have the luxury to travel right now. I'm worried offcourse, but I'm hoping this is something that can be resolved without me flying to Seoul.
"I'll book your ticket" he insisted, determined that I have to go this time. Seeing him acting like this make it seem like something serious happened. I don't wanna act on impulse but after some pondering, I finally surrendered and agreed with his request,
"Fine. I'll have to find an excuse for my absence from school then. But I can't stay there for long okay?" I answered while trying to think of an excuse. I rarely do this, and if I do, it's because my parents needed me to accompany them to social gatherings and widen my connections as early as possible and if it's them, I don't really need to find an excuse as the school is much willing to send me there. On the other hand, Aiden is a different story. He doesn't have a good relationship with our parents and I should find a way wherein my instructors won't alert my parents about my absence. I can't let go of any of them so it is tiring being squeezed in between.
I looked at the man seated in front of me and realized I don't have time for this game, I have more important things to deal with and romance isn't one of them.