From: Kamal E Y <[email protected]>
To: Sabrina < [email protected] >
Sent: 30 August, 1999 04:07 PM
First of all, let me say CONGRATS to you for getting the new job. I feel jealous of you seeing how you steer your life. Perhaps the fact that you alone help you to do it. You don't have to discuss it with anybody. But hmmm...why didn't you tell me? I would have agreed wholeheartedly.
I like my colleagues very much. But the career is also a very important thing. Making money is another. All of these are important. My aim is to work in some foreign country for 3 or 4 years and make some money and then quietly settled for a good job somewhere where I can use my knowledge and expertise. I want to do something for the society I have many ambitions...I will try to make them true. With you, besides me, I will surely accomplish all. Your will power is important to me, even if we are so far away.
I don't know what to tell Sumit. I will tell only that I love you. And you are the first girl who made me realize my body needs as well as how I should go about in my future. I will tell him that you are sweet, loving and innocent. Yea, a bit stubborn too...But all the traits I like. That you are fierce in love and hate. And you are sincere to your belief. Above all, you are sooo lovely...I am not complimenting you. I know you are bad and I like all the badness in you. I feel bad is better than good!!!
So you will now fly around the film world. And I am glad you got such an important post. You will be in contact with the best people in the film industry. Actually I am a bit afraid that you may get too busy to spend time with me. But I am happy to have you at the top of the world.
Yes, I want to be with you, doing the ultimate act night after night and even day times. We will meet shortly. Maybe I could visit you there next year early sometime or perhaps you could come here. I am waiting for you to hold you in my arms and kiss you to death. Tickling the most secret arts, licking the folds...fondling, caressing your whole body...We have to meet. Now I feel disappointed about our canceled appointment. But be sure that I will keep my word. I have to earn a little more money and right now I am doing that. From December onwards our salary will be raised heavily. I am waiting for it to happen. Will you wait for me? I am dying of this waiting...Will you wait for me until our times come and we meet?
You are asking about my first love. Ok, I will tell, but you didn't tell me exactly what happened on our Valentine's Day. Hmmmm...
Her name is Tanya. Yes, we were together every day, except on Saturdays and Sundays. We spoke and smiled at each other, made fun of each other. Her parents were against our relationship because of two things. The first one is our horoscopes didn't match. The second one is our problem too. She was elder than me by 6 months. But the first one was the main thing.
Our last words...We cried a lot that day. That was over the Telephone. I asked her whether she really loved me. She said, she has never loved anyone else in this world as much as she loved me. She said she will never be able to love anyone in the future even her husband as much as she loved me. I was totally lost. There was nothing for me to tell...She said she will become a nun. But I said I will be happy only if I see her married and that I want to see her son. I don't remember all, everything was foggy and misty with tears covering my eyes and emotions covering my heart.
I never had sex with her. At that time it was a platonic love. Sex was considered bad at the intention. That was a teenage, where we refused to accept the facts.
I have written a lot about her. I never told anyone this much. Since I want you to know how I was, I told this to you. Did you get bored? I didn't intend to spoil your mood.
Write back to my princess, I want to hear from you. The hut she gave me, and I gave her, was healed by you. I want you to know that you woke me up from dark...