Chapter 27 · Penny dropped
"I didn't mean it like that Jade. Come out already," Bane called from the overside of the bathroom door.
What was I changing into? I started at my reflection or what was meant to be me. I looked like me. It didn't use to fell weird that I had changed much but now I didn't know. Was I turning into something... monsters. I mean I looked nicer but if my soul was 'changing' as Bane had said what if I become not me. My whole life was one big sad story and this was just another thing to add to it.
And even now with all the things that had happened to me I still couldn't control it. I still had no power. I had nothing. Even my own body and soul wasn't mine.
"Fuck you life," I whispered. I could feel tears roll off my cheek as my eyes burn.
After a few seconds or maybe a few minutes I wiped the tears away.
I had to find answers. I owned it for myself. And to Zoe. Turning to unlock the door; I walk out.
Bane stood next to the door with Susan next to her worry on both their faces. Tiki stood nearby tapping on a phone only to look up and see me and stop with a small sigh. Steel was still on the sofa drinking out of a china teacup.
"I'm... I'm sorry about that, I..." I started to say feeling embarrassed about breaking down like that when Bane clapped a hand on my should. It kind of hurt.
"I'm the one who should be saying sorry. I could have explained it better. No, I shouldn't have said anything at all. I'm no doctor of the soul I shouldn't have freak you out like that," Bane said looking at me deeply. I felt start to feel my cheeks even more red.
"I think I'm going to go to bed now," I replied with a squeak and quickly walked to my room shutting the door behind me.
I looked so stupid. Why did I have to meet new people today? now I'm always going to be the freak out little girl to them.
I sat in my room for the rest of the day. A got asked if I wanted anything to eat which I declined feeling bad for making them feel like they had to take care of me like some little kid.
Later they said goodbye and went. I said goodbye and thanked them for being so nice.
I spent the rest of the day on my laptop. I found a few fun things to do but most of the time I sat thinking about what to do now. Which is when I made a decision.
It took a few hours but I heard the door open at about dusk. I poked my head out of my door to find Zoe standing there in the open doorway.
I quickly walk over to her.
"How were you da..." I started to say before she hugged me. I felt my body freeze.
Her amber hair fell on my face like a sea of brown leaves and with the smell of smoke. Her body warm against me. I couldn't tell if I was feeling heart mine beating.
"Zoe I um... need to ask you for a favour. I um I... Zoe?" Muttered as I felt her weight increases. I felt my muscle start to weaken as she leaned on me.
Then I couldn't hold her any more.